| Quote of the entry: "Adios amigos!"
Well my friends it has all come down to this very day. On this day we
will part ways for a long period of time. I however will try to find
some ways to stay in contact with you all. I was glad that I got to
share some of my emotional struggles on here and not feel like a dork
>.< Though I have been inactive for quite some time, I want you
all to know that I'll miss you and that I'll never lose complete
contact with any of you.
I apologize for cutting this entry so short but I am not very good at
this sappy stuff so be grateful that I even acknowledged any of you. :)
Just kidding. I really am going to miss some of you.
~Mari
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| Quote of the entry: "Ever see a passing cloud and wish it were you?"
It's been a while. My daily life has been eventful. Unfortunately those
events have not been the greatest things to encounter to say the least.
I've been feeling a bit healthier since there's been a change of
routine for me. I try to stray away from situations that would cause
over the top stress and loss of hair *LOL*
Finished one of my paintings and it feels very good. This piece is
something that I felt should be completed. I enjoyed myself very
much.....though there were times that I thought it was pointless to
continue painting. But encouraging words from my buddies really helped.
Yes I am a sucker for those kinds of things.
Since I'm writing this at such a late hour my brain isn't really
functioning. I'll leave this entry alone for a bit and get back to you
all as soon as possible....which knowing me would take about a week or
so.
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| Quote of the entry: "Your mom likes me dude"
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| Quote of the entry: "For he spoke of love and change"
So I find myself running back to this place when in need of a breath of
fresh air. While it is not something new it's something I'm sure that
can at least change my normal routine. I've been missing more days from
school now.....more than normal. Why? because I find myself physically
tired and emotionally distressed. Aside from the fact that I easily get
sick I've been put against unwanted stress. Stress at home and stress
at school.
Many of you who are very close to me already know my situation at home
and why I would be so drastically dramatic about it. For those of you
who don't know I'm glad you don't, I'm not going to burden anyone by
going on and on detailing everything that goes on in my family and home.
School....I've fallen behind in my studies and exams, I'm desperately
trying to get my act together. I've tried to not let these feelings get
the best of me but they are very overwhelming. I'm not trying to make
excuses here because I'm tired of those....but It's hard to wake up and
feel like a ton of bricks are on top of your body making it difficult to
breath and stand up. What's really bugging me is when I go to school. I
know everyone means well when they ask me If I'm alright. I'm tired of
hearing it everyday "are you okay?" "you look pale" "you don't look so
good" "am I making you mad" "is something wrong ?"
YES! I want you to leave me alone and realize that all I want is my
space. Yes I know I look sick everyday I am the one suffering here I
should know what I look and feel like. Yes I know that a lot of people
can make me easily mad.....but I try and I try to keep my patience.
And I'm really sorry for screaming at all of you and telling you to
back off when I wasn't feeling very well. I want to try and let you all
understand how I feel and why I need my space.
I'm such a hypocrite
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